idealism vs. reality

I used to be idealistic, thinking everything is good, people are good. No such bad things happen in real life. It is just the creation of men's imagination.

But i got through on bad situation, realized bad things do happen in reality. Trust is so hard to gain. Friendship so difficult to have. But after being so afraid, i realized life is not worth living if these are not around. What do i have to live for if i am all afraid, friends merely don't exist, afraid to love and trust. So why else do i live, i would not want to go through life like a numb robot.

I have learned that in life there are good and bad things. We go through experiences to learn and know which is right and wrong. Know how to weigh things are worth keeping and which to prioritize. Everything should be in moderation. Love must be enough reason . Forgive yourself and others. Just have faith on something you wish for. Wish everyone good. Give your best in everything.

I believe in righteousness. Yes somethings are worth keeping but doing it wrongly would just erase the good intention underlying it. I believe that TIME do heal, help, solve things. Need not to force things but give the natural force make things happen.

I must admit i am still trying to be positive amidst all the violence, proofs of evil things around. I dont want to live in fear nor would want to go through life in fear. I want answer to liberate me from fears, doubts. I like to consider my life as a mission to prove that life can be lived in good, peaceful way.

May the ONE above provide guidance, support, unfailing faith to serve my mission. Though sometime we feel we are weak in faith, i would want to believe it is just part of a test and lesson to get us prepared with the ones ahead.