why can't i tell my heart to..

a week before my 27th..
my heart is pounding;
I wanted to go elsewhere so much.
Experience east in east.
talk to someone from west in the east.
experience seasons.
can't stop my heart and take a leap

its has always been me.. weeping..
always in the middle.. thinking and pondering on this that may or may not come.

i want to see places.
i want to be able to experience life.

i think i need to rethink my moves.. realign stats so i can maximize things i want.!!!

aja aja..

What's this thing I'm feeling

weather : Rainy
song : Pop goes my heart, way back into love

mood : inspired, thankful , tired and confused , afraid of what I am feeling right now.


It has been a week full of adventure in korea.
Met a great tour guide, nice culture, very different.

Makes me home sick a bit.but okay.

But what struck me was my last day. I must be just out of my system to be thinking of these things.

i felt a connection, but not sure if it goes back here.
I am afraid of what i am feeling right now, maybe just having some emptiness. My imagination rolling. Here I am again battling my heart and mind to stop thinking about something that is not bound to happen.

It's like we are too alike and just this mental thing and connection strucks me hard. Maybe because its my travelling thing that kept me thinking about these nerving things.

I just keep on praying for this thing called love, if it strucks me, please let me know.

and i sing..

Way Back into Love Lyrics
[Cora]
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

[Alex]
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

[Cora]
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

[Alex]
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

[Cora]
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Wouldn't it be nice..

This week has been extra chilly and cold. Must be some miracle happening in the weather in Manila. Usually its not that cold but I have to get all our sweater and jackets to get through my day. My jackets all saved up for a travel on a foreign and cold city. But now i use it on a local basis. Must be some environmental mix up.

I think it has reached 18.6 degrees celcius on a January month in Manila. Unusual but nice. I also read from BG's column that it is like winter in manila. I totally agree with her and enjoy it while it is here, coz it wont stay long.

I want to write it for historical purpose. I get to sport my fashionable and warm jackets around the office and the metro without looking so over dressed. I have reasons to wear them.
I have a pretty positive January . And i thought I am not really affected at things that goes wrong. I just play along with it and do the lesser damage to make the day right. After all it all boils down to one conclusion at the end of the day.

Wouldn't it be nice if our weather and my attitude stays this way.. I hope it would go all year long :)