I had a confession to make.. I'm not proud of it but I did something that I should not repeat ever. I got so furious after my sister keeps on nagging me. I threw a chair - well just a plastic and light one- at her. Just to shut her up. I am really devastated of the fact that I was so pressured and so unhappy at work. Then at the strike of 530 pm. I still have to do one task that costs me an hour. I was just supposed to print something , but the printer is not okay. At 630 i just gave up. Plus my sister kept calling me nagging nagging. and got caught in traffic. Making the driver unhappy too.. so everybody is really unhappy.
Then I was so sad. you can see it in my face. so i was trying to be okay last night. I wanted to be alone at the room. Was crying out of misery why i did i let others boss me around and not do a single thing for me. Im so depressed and when my sister passed by the room, she blurted out not to be so touchy and emotional and got a nag. I wanted to shut her up.. and i threw a chair at her.
Im back again at my dilemma. I wanted to pursue my dreams and wanted to try things i like. but im caught with family and responsibilities. Also I am not equipped, and I am afraid i might not survive well. its really a pain.