im really really frustrated right now. so frustrated i want to cry and just go on a soul searching trip.
I think I am feeling how I want to have freedom to pursue my dreams without having to stress out on my worries. I want to be righteous and at the same time be able to be me and go with my dreams.
Right now, when i do what I think is right, i felt like I am sacrificing my own happiness. Can;t I have both?
It;s like i have no chance to go to my dreams. I am too afraid to do things, take risks and just bounded inside rules. Things are actually confusing me.. It's been a contradicting attitude for me. I dont know which side of me will I listen to . I have been expecting that I will be in this stage again. After a few years ago, i decide not to listen to my ambitious self. but maybe envy, anxiety just woke up the ambitious me and I am really confused right now whether I would listen to my self or not..