Friday, September 10, 2004

saranghaeyo

must not mean something to me before not until now. I think this is a very powerful emotion. It just amazes me how this feeling could overwhelm, be so powerful yet so gentle to our lives.

I am too coward to finish a series with so much emotion, I am afraid I can't get over it. I might be looking for it. As I have known myself, I would not want to be falling too deep into it. Unless it is for real. I cannot take the emotional torture over and over again by some people;s emotion. If I get to experience it in reality, it;ll just be fine. I want to get through too. But I don't think I would be brave enough if I get to that such difficult situation all in the name of LOVE. In my opinion everything should be balanced, in time all things will fall into places, just haev faith and have your will.. you can never go wrong following your heart ( with some logical thinking of course, alongside) ;P

I prefer beautiful days and glass shoes, coz they dont bring the whole decade to memory lane. Making the main characters dwell on the past and not move on entirely. Have to live in the present, treasure and cherish the past and just look forward to a brighter future. That's more I like it. Because If i were to apply it to me, I would still be wallowing over my love that I never had. I sent my love to the person but the other party loves another person. I knew it was love because I was willing to let go and just be contented with the fact that I have loved a person that much selflessly.

It was weird the other night. I dreamt that JJ was coming back. At least not to me, but he's coming home. I did not know if its for good or just a visit. But he's one great guy, I really like him. But I never had the chance to tell cos I know it will just make the friendship awkward. And it is obvious that he likes someone else. Love is a mutual feeling between to individuals who just has this certain understanding and infinite concern. it just wont work if we get through it through force. Right time is also a great factor for a lasting love.

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