temper rising

i had a really cold shower but i did not mind at all. My temper got me so upset that i jsut want to dip into a coldwater and lose the temper.

I almost gone insane today for the kids at work. it just frustrates me. things like these make me want to get out of the country go bakcpacking and wander out of this circle. i felt so hurt and tired always.

I must supress this anger in favor of social norms and respect for people around me. so no wonder i might catch a cancer later because of these norms i have to follow and how i dealt with anger..

i read my classmate;s blog and i go over their picture flickers. and i felt so selfish and alone. i dont even hve a friend to pin point to if i get into deep deep trouble. i think i 'd just bury myself and hide in the woods and no one would really wonder where i;ve been. if they do, they'll just give up the minute they can't ifind me. .. ohh pathetic.

it is just sometimes really tiring to understand a lot of people. taking them into consideration and all you got you hhave to worryabout yourself. oh poor little me...

please get me out of this dark moment.