today is a heavy one for me..
it is really erratic. take note ERRATIC. It's on my nerve.
The day was like its going up and down really crazy.. feel like giving up right at this moment.. yet frustrated with the way things are going.
For starters, I tried to start the day right, make things right and find a way for me to do it correctly.
But somehow in the middle of the day, I called my big time screw up for the month of April. It really let me down.. and the whole set of oh no things happened. I messed up big time for this time.. not just the biz card but now its for the whole batch of papers. Then after getting me down, I wrote down the wrong return fax number.. how stupid and careless I am. Of course writing it down in a letter , I have to do it twice or thrice because of errors, lack of Common sense? , laziness. I know its been a very infuriating thing I did. I feel really bad and i can;t do anything about it.
To sum my week up.. it had been quite weird. I was doubting someone on fooling around or flirting around. I have yet to confirm but I am doing my way to prevent it.. like to appear on the scene always to keep something from happening. Then the kids are way way over gettting me. I am not happy now.. it is like I want to take some burden off someone but I myself am not capable of handling that. I cant really breathe.
The tonight a hideous , awful story came up to me. Family is shaking really... if you are low, you are really low.. people will have to show up their true colors. It's like your story against mine.. who is correct.. who gets it right.. we don't know. There is no one to say which one is right and other is wrong.
Primetime to 11pm.. i have been immersed in tv lifestyle. Started to watch one tree hill, oprah, csi, 6 feet, and i stopped myself.. coz i so much wanted not to mess another day tomorrow.
The bad trip highlight for the night.. the computer upstairs won;t boot up.. meaning we have to drag a whole gang of team just to get it fixed and another trip back home. Or I have to open up the PC.. since its really annoying to know your pc is barely a year old and it is already getting crazy moods.
well i just have to keep my faith.. i have to get it stronger.. the more trials there is.. i have to go and seek answers with courage and faith in it.
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