its an unusual day for me.. not sad, not overly excited but indifferent. I think I am stating myself to be cool and indifferent at all occassions.. coz any extreme feeling makes me go sideways. This year its different.. i spent my afternoon at the mall. I never went to the mall on the eve. I was wondering why its so quiet at 7pm .. then i realized its the christmas eve.. ehhehe sorry i forgot that..
I am happy for the year that passed.. I am just simply thankful and putting my faith all up there.
This thought of not having someone with you on Christmas always equate to a not so happy or incomplete christmas... is it correct or not... my sister is quite bothered and saddened by the thought of spinsterhood. SHe is a darling but i think the right one is not on her way yet. I was preparing myself not to be on that feeling.. its awful i think.. I am just convincing myself that no matter what happens i will accept it.. either way i have plans. I dont even have an idea if someone is out there for me.. maybe my life was written with no love interest in it...
For me.. just having felt that I have loved someone unconditionally is enough.. though it was not reciprocated never mind. my point is.. i've given my love i did not expect anything.. true enough nothing came back. ehehhe.. I hope its never equated a boyfriendless christmas to a sad one.
Yes, i think its true.. having something to look forward to and reach for makes life interesting all the time..
Merry Christmas all... wish you all the best
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