this is a dream i had this morning or a continuation of 2 parts.I am not really sure how the story transpired into a story that I don't know where it originated.What i remembered is that I have a kid with me. A little girl that is my kid.I don't know how i had the kid, but the thing is I did not have a time for the child.I happen to learn that i don't have much time for another person right now. I realized being a parentis no joke. The kid won't do things on itself. More so for an infant, it needs you to really take care of it.
What i did in the dream is that i went on to my daily morning routine and then realizing after a fewhours that I have a kid. I let the 1 or 2 year old sleep alone straight for 8 hours and no body looking after her. I felt guilty for not even taking care of the child. surprisingly,my little girl is really understanding. She woke up smiling and not bratty.She said it something in this way." it's okay. also youforgot to get me this assignment. i wasn't able to submit it to the teacher. but it's okay. i will send it in tomorrow." giving me enough time and not even complaining.I was just so touched by this kid's gesture and made me think im not good enough to be a parent.while all along i was thinking that i can be a parent already. Yet one has to make more time, effort,care and sacrifices to be one.
Then i came to ask who is the father of my kid. I don't have any idea on who the father is. I don't recalldating or having any intercourse with anybody. How is that possible that i have a kid on my own.Yet everybody knew who the father is. he is this guy from this place , who works for his father's shoe companyi had this idea of hush puppies. Yet i was still thinking.. i dont recall any.They say that the guy is dead. HOw sad, i;m a single mom, no idea who the father is, and the father of my child is dead.i did not even get the chance to meet this guy who gave me a sweet little girl.
As everyone knows this is the halloween season, just in time for the season. In my dream it says we were going to the cemetery. And i wanted to see who the guy is. Every one i asked knew who this guy is except for me. and its like i was obliged to pay a visit. After all i have his child.When i saw the picture on the tomb. i really don't know the guy. i said no idea. but i paid my respect to the person.but thinking really really hard, i don't know the guy. no idea really! how could this happen. he looks okay.
so i concluded maybe i had an immaculate conception, or i adopted this guy's kid, or the i dated the a widowed guy and now he is dead, he left the child to my care.
weird isn't it. i wondered what this dream means. meaning a new placE? a new journey i need to face ?
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