its the time of the day that can make you happy yet sad.
i got a work screw up .. back logged by my carelessness, and impatience last week.
It's gonna be a major blow on my ego and just got my confidence down . was just starting topick up my pace. But see.. I sleep late, my mind floats around at work, I can't get a task done properly. I am like a useless robot in the office. annoying robot, not at leastan independent cool and amazing robot. But the one that you want to discard. anyway itsjust causing you nuisances. jsut a secret.. i dozed off at work today.. i really am a lazy employee... dozing off in front of the screen. but i am really just tired from the day before.It's 4pm and my eyes just can't keep it up to work. plus my mind is so tired to think of wayson how to make the task.. isnt it pathetic.
flipped through channels from 730pm to 11pm. stayed with House MD.. its a new show.just too lazy and tired and down to open my email and check if another issue has to be resolved, or another deadline to meet. I cant hardly perform on my job. how do i address other problems and take care of them. I just chill tonight.. getting my mind offthe majore mess up i did at work. I am trying to concentrate but maybe something is onmy mind. just dont know what it is.
my smile for the day is just now.. when i saw jep's reply to my greeting. at least he acknowledgesmy greeting. though last time i did not get a reply. I am not showing anything to revealmy feelings am i?
my teaching passion is just dwindling down the drain. I feel like I am just an ineffectiveeducator. It just stops at one point and my student never launches for indepence. If compared to a star or starlet, they just did not boost off. I tried reading articlesif teaching is or is not for me.. just did not answer any of the questions. thesethings still bothers me why am i not good at anything right now. I just suck. feel like a total loser, staying afloat and trying to get better and survive.
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